Though immensely proud of my achievement of seeing three novels in print, and extremely pleased with my work and the feedback received from those reading them, the commercial success I had hoped for, and which I invested in, did not come. In fact, I didn't even get the sales needed to break even, which was depressing and a deep hole (metaphorically and financially) I had to climb out of to get over,but not altogether unexpected or surprising. Most authors don't make a penny from their work - just 2% of authors make 90% of all money generated in publishing. For a while I questioned myself. What's the point? I felt miserable and was close to calling it a day. I forgot the real reasons for writing in the first place, and when I tried to write, I found I couldn't I wasn't enjoying it anymore. Creatively I was spent.
So I took some time off. Spent time with my family and focused on other things. I started learning to play the guitar and dedicated more of my time towards my voluntary work. I even got a part-time job to pay some of those bills we all have. After a few months I started to feel more positive, and a little more time passed I got the itch to write again. Like Daniel Craig, I've returned to the role I enjoy most despite swearing at one point a keenness to slit one's wrists than to do it again. The reason I write is not to make money, but because I love doing it. I love creating characters and putting them in situations or peril that I could never hope (or want) to face or overcome. I enjoy making shit up, and spending chunks of my time just daydreaming. It's the best feeling in the world writing a story. I write because I want to do it. I write for myself. And when someone else reads it, that's just the icing on the cake. Commercial success or not, it doesn't matter. More than a thousand people have read The Girl in the Mirror. If those readers all came back to read the follow-ups, and my other books, then I'll be satisfied. Hell, I'd be happy with 10% of them coming back for more... I'm not greedy.
It's been almost two years since The Girl in the Mirror was published, and I am pleased to announce that I am back with a new novel very soon. First, to celebrate the anniversary of my first book, I've decided to scrub the charge for the eBook and make it permanently free from today. I want as many people to read it as possible. So, if you've not read The Girl in the Mirror, you can head over to your normal eBook seller (Amazon, Kobo, iBook, Barnes & Noble, Smashwords) and download it today for nothing. Hopefully you'll enjoy it enough to come back and purchase the follow up novels. You may even be keen to learn that a fourth novel in the series is in the works, but more about that another time.
As mentioned a moment ago, I have a new novel coming out soon. I've just finished re-writing my latest book and it's currently going through the final phase with my new editor. Provisionally titled The Fly Revolution, it's a stand-alone horror novel based on an idea I came up with when I was in my late teens/early twenties. It's taken me twenty-odd years to mature enough as a person and a writer to work on it to completion, and now its close to being finished. It was the story that made me want to write again, and I am really looking forward to publishing it and letting you all get a chance to read it. That will likely be early next year. I hope to announce its release date very soon. In the mean time, I have a speculative book cover which may (or may not) be used on the final version (above).
I'll try not to be a stranger and will be back soon with some more thoughts and reflections...